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  1. I have been searching for websites/pins/ blogs and nothing popped up till I just read your story. We took in a 13 week old baby boy last Nov and still have him. We aren’t “ Official” Foster parents. VERY long story but we never know what the next court date will hold for us… We just got word that the mother after a year has decided to start going to Parenting Classes. I’m a WRECK I assumed she wouldn’t step up to the plate ( it’s been a year ) He only knows us as his family. I’m lost on what to do if we do loss him. How do I prepare myself and stay strong for my own 3 Children and my sweet baby that knows me as his Mama??? When I got him he was a emotional lost baby w/ no love in his eyes now he is FILLED with love and happiness. I know she’s his mom and she will have her own way of love. But it’s going to be a COMPLETE different life for him. The thought of him going to singing the Wheels on Bus in our car to rap music blaring makes me honestly sick. I’m trying so hard to be understanding and writing everything I can down just in case the Judge lets her have this chance after a year. But dang it’s unbearable pain!!! He sees her only on Face Time ( she lives in Nebraska and we live in Alabama ) she doesn’t say much when she does Call I do most of the interaction. So he would be basically going to a Face he sees on a phone every maybe 2 weeks for about 10 mins. Our next court date is Jan 11th. Any words would be wonderful! Sincerely, Catherine

    1. Hi Catherine,
      Sweet lady, my heart is hurting for you and the massive unknown you are facing. One of the hardest aspects of this kind of situation is the lack of control! We love these babies so deeply, yet have such little say when it comes to their future. My mantra during our process became, “I don’t trust the system, I trust the Sovereign.” I praying with you for this little guy, praying God would go before and move mountains on his behalf. I’ve seen it happen before – the way God swoops in at the last minute and changes everything. Few things in my life have ever cost me so much as loving a little one like the one you are holding close. Few things have ever taught me more about God, too. I’m behind you, with you. Please keep me updated. My email address is bethlaw98@gamil.com.

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